For the past twenty-seven years
That I have been on this earth
Something unsettling has haunted me
Since the day of my birth.
For the longest time
I could not pin-point this feeling
Like I did not belong here
Living life was not that appealing.
Growing up throughout the years
The urge seemed to grow
Knowing I did not value what I had
Living a life this shallow.
I normally excelled at what I did
Obtaining above average intelligence
But still knowing something was not right
Hiding in unspoken silence.
After about twenty years of living
I finally realize what was wrong
Understanding why I felt like I did
Knowing why I did not belong.
Even though I existed on this planet
I was only half alive
Walking around incomplete
Wondering how I was able to survive.
Not having the ability to love
Filled instead with pity and aggravation
Being overlooked by God
Ashamed of his creation.
Feeling hallow inside
Like a balloon filled with air
A empty shell of a man
Filled only with despair.
Cursed to walk the planet
For many many years
Doomed to walk alone
Shedding many many tears.
But what have I done
To deserve this fate
Why was I labeled
As Gods only mistake?