What is happening to me?
There is no happiness spreading around on the inside
I only wanted to be left alone out of the blue
I only and only wanted someone to be on my side
The tears are now fearing of me
Myself, Personal, and I
There are no good days for me to survive free
Mama, you are too blind to see me in a pain to make me die
Mama, you don't understand how much I am feeling this way
I know your pain when you were young
I know your stories in your past days
The words behind my tongue
Mama, you don't know me as well as I know myself
This is my first time to write a poem to express my pain out
To yourself
I am only the one invisible in here in a doubt
Mama, Mama, I am screaming in a dead mute
To weep in a sea
Only and one the pursuit
Of love to take me away to be free
August 22, 2008